Reflecting (more like stressing)

Junior year.  It's been tough and crazy.  It's amazing how much of your life seems to depend on these years of high school.  I can't believe that just next school year...really just about another 5 months...college apps will need to be filled and everything I've done in high school will be evaluated.  How am I supposed to compete with super geniuses?  How am I supposed to compete with people who have achieved so much more than me?  How could I be better compared to everyone else?  Some people say that your life does not depends entirely on getting into an amazing college, but how can it not?  Why would a CEO hire you if someone else has gone to a better ranked college?  Even if you have a natural talent or are more suited for the job, a better ranking is simply a better ranking.  I remember my father telling me that when he was going through job applications, he would simply skip over anyone who went to San Jose State.  Why should he hire them when he had someone from a UC applying?  "Even if you don't get into the college you wanted to get into now, you can go to community college and apply later".  But that just means you're in college for a longer period of time.  You have set back your life by at least another two years.  So much can happen in two years...
I don't feel ready to go to college.  I don't feel prepared to head out into the real world.  I don't feel excited that I could leave home.  I just feel anxious and worried.  Because by the time college is over, I'm supposed to be an adult.  I've never thought of myself as weak, not mentally nor physically, but how am I supposed to take up the responsibilities of an adult?  Is it because I'm still young, or is this a sign that the medical field is really not for me?
What even happened to junior year?  I feel like it passed so quickly.  I honestly still  feel like I'm flailing to survive my physics class; how did I never grasp it?  Sure some of the days in the weeks seemed to pass by slowly, but overall...what happened to the year?  Was I not just picking out notebooks to use for each class?  Now I'm here with the covers of my notebooks falling off and pages full of concepts that I hardly remember. 
I don't want to be a senior.  I don't want to have a year left to figure out what I'm doing - wait, I don't even have that.  I may be excited for summer, but I don't want high school to end.  I don't want high school and all its comforts and familiarity to be gone.  I got high school.  I understood how to get by (sort of).  I suppose I have another year to prepare myself for something that I don't know how to prepare for though.

Differences Between Strains, Sprains, Fractures, and Breaks

Recently I fractured my wrist, I didn't even realize that I had been hurt that badly.  I went to the doctor about a week later (after much persuasion by others) just to get it checked out.  I was then sent to an orthopedic where they had said that while the fracture was healing fine, I had torn the ligament between the main bone and smaller one.  So I ended up wearing a giant cast (a Munster cast...where your palm faces upward and the cast extends up to your elbow...part of it is cut so you can bend your elbow but nothing else can move except your fingers so you're pretty much stuck and it's horrible) for the past five weeks (which came off Friday...two days ago...yay!) all over a silly, avoidable wrist injury.  I still have to wear a brace though for another week and a half...Anyway. 
I decided to write this post about the differences between strains, sprains, fractures, and breaks.  In the case of sprains, a ligament (tissue that connects bones to joints) has been partially torn or overstretched.  On the other hand, a strain is where the tendon (tissues that connect muscle to bone) has been stretched or torn.  Bruising is often an effect of sprains, while swelling occurs with both.  Strains may incur muscle spasms.  Both may lead to surgery if severe enough.  Apparently you can get put in a cast for a severe enough sprain, which really just is horrible and irritating.  And once you get the cast off you really don't feel any better because everything is sore and stiff and still hurts from not being able to move anything for weeks and weeks.
A fracture and break are the same thing.  The bone has snapped/cracked; it's as simple (and painful) as that.  Broken is fractured, and fractured means broken. 
This seemed more like a rant than anything else.